Feeling discouraged

Well...another new week begins. I finished week 3 of c25k training...i started week 3 again so i'm actually on my 3rd day of the 3rd week before moving on to week 4. I know i'm not ready for week 4 since week 3 is still tough. I now check my weight every monday and this morning i saw i gained a little. :( i'm kinda not surprised since the weekend eating wasn't so good- i always have too much pizza. it's soo good but 3 or less of slices should be enough but i always want more. but this time i had 1 less than i normally had last weekend. it's hard finding good lunch ideas since i want to try to eat better. i'm scared of trying new things that i might not like them. I've noticed that I don't crave sugar as much as i used to, which is good. Also, i got a pint of custard from culvers last week since i got a coupon for free pint for donating my blood last month and i finally decided to redeem it last week. I def can only enjoy like 1/4 of a pint before feeling lil sick. which is better than eating the whole thing right away and not feel so good later. i'm making it last for sure. This coming week i'm hoping to continue to drink as much water as i can, up to half my body weight in ounces and try to eat veggies/fruits. I've been feeling little discouraged since it seems like nothing is improving with my weight and eating. But i know it takes time. I'm just not always patient. I'm glad i'm able to do c25k training but i wish it's easy (i know everyone agrees/wants the same thing)!! :P Well hopefully this week will be a little better but we'll see... Till next time, Hannah

It's been a while, once again...

Well...it's been a while... I'm starting over, once again. This time I want to really set on it. I know it won't always be easy on the journey but I need to work hard especially since I made a decision to do something that I've never done before- it's related with running. I'm planning to do my first half marathon next May...so yeah i think I'd like to lose some weight by then=easier to run. So far I'm on week 3 of c25k training. Today was supposed to be my 2nd day but it rained and I don't want to run in the rain, and also (lame excuse but whateav) my legs were still sore from a fitness challenge workout that i did 1-2 days ago. So i'm doing it tomorrow instead and then hopefully the 3rd day on Saturday, then the coming week start over on Mon. I'm getting close to the week that I reached in c25k app but never completed since last fall/winter. Week 4 :P I'm trying to do better with eating fruits and veggies. Junk food- still addicated to 'em but i've noticed that I don't enjoy some certain junk food/candies as much as I used to, (which is good! in a way) and some of the chips- i don't enjoy 'em much anymore. I really want to try to eat better/healthier but i know it'll be a slow/long progress. but better than noting and giving up! I know i'll be weak sometimes and give in but I hope it won't happen too often. Well that's all i can think of for now to write about. I'll try to do weekly updates but we'll see. -Hannah

Struggling...and a small victory

Lately I've been struggling with not eating junk food- I've been having too much sugar lately, esp at Good News Club(s) :P Even tho i know it's not good and healthy for me I just keep doing it. I really need to stop it. And sometimes it feels like it's impossible for me to lose weight and be thinner. And healthier. It will definitely be a long journey, but I'm trying to remember why I wanted to lose weight in the first place. Instagram is helping me be inspired...I'm following some people on their weight loss journey and they post some sayings and quotes that helps me sometimes. I think I better write down any that helps me, motivates me in notebook or on piece of papers and hang it up in my room. I plan to either do it today or tomorrow- make a poster to help motive me, and hopefully that will help too. I plan to put a pic of me now, and then later when i've lost the weight for an before and after. Today, I'm doing okay so far- in fact last night i decided to set out clothes for me to workout and I posted it on IG...and this morning I got up early and at first didn't want to do it but then I checked my IG and some people liked my pic and commented...so I decided to do it even tho I didn't want to. So...yeah I did it and it wasn't as bad as I was thinking...just the lunges, squats and jumping jacks I dislike :P lol. I'm doing Th.e Big.gest Lo.ser workout dvd that I brought 1-2 years ago. I started doing it but then just stopped for no reason... :P probably too lazy or something like that. Anyways...afterwards I feel really good and little sore. Made a peanut butter banana smoothie- I've never made smoothies before but now I'm planning to try to do them more to have some carbs, protein and just something good after/before my workout(s). I had to give my siblings a ride somewhere and then after dropping them off I decided to stop by Walmart just to browse around for a bit. I ended up buying a blank poster to TRY to start the project later today...I might post a pic of it after its done but we'll see. I'm hoping to get my room cleaned up today- I'm thinking of trying to get moving around more this weekend instead of just lying around on my bed reading or browsing around on my phone. I really wish I have a dog sometimes...definitely will get plenty of movement and walks if I had one :o)

Rainy day

I'm bummed out...I was hoping to go on more walks this week but it's raining...and supposed to be for the next 3 days :P awesome. I'm really struggling with not eating too much sugar. Sure wish it isn't so hard. But hopefully when I'm out of my Easter candy I won't struggle so much esp if I'm at home. But we'll see. So far, I've completed 3 out of 10 walks. :) All 3 walks were kinda over a mile- ranging from 1.50-1.65. Before, my reward for completing the goal was to get an haircut but now I'm not sure. I might change my mind. At first I wanted to have shorter hair for the summer, since it's much easier to take care of, and I've always put my hair up in ponytails very often, which isn't good for my hair. But now I'm unsure if I want to let it grow out like i did last summer. The past few summers I've gotten my hair cut but last year I didn't and it wasn't so bad. So I'm not sure. Anyways...sorry my posts are kinda boring without pics and I'm not that good of a blogger right now :P I'm not sure about posting pics of myself yet. Lately I've been struggling with losing weight. Some days I feel like it will never happen. Some days it feels like I can do it. Up and down. It seems impossible even tho I'm inspired by some Instagram profiles. I'm trying to drink more water every day, since I found out that you should be drinking at least 1 gallon every day. So we'll see. That's all I can think of to write for now. So...till next time.

April Goal

Okay this is kinda short...just wanna put this out there so I can make sure to really do it. My goal for the month of April is kinda small...cuz i don't know how the weather will be like this month, and I may be busy or whatever. But here we go...I'm planning to TRY to go on at least up to 10 walks this month, or more than that. And each walk needs to be more than a mile. And another small goal along with that is eat more veggies and fruits. Reward: I get an haircut. I'm trying to think n get ideas for non-food rewards...I mean I'm trying to lose weight, and I shouldn't want food for reward. :P So let's see how this goes.

Definitely hard sometimes

I now know it's harder than i thought, especially with resisting sugar. :P I made puppy chow for my brother's class tonight and since I was driving him and staying to bring him home afterwards, of course I wanted to have some. I snitched some while making it earlier. Same thing with making treats for Good News Club. Why is it so hard??? Last 2 weeks I didn't have any sugar while my brother was in class, which I consider a small success but not tonight. I need to remember to make small goals instead of big ones. It may be overwhelming to me sometimes. I'm still trying sometimes. Just sure wish I can get rid of all junk food but my family might not be happy with me. And besides, I need to make treats for Good News Club and we sometimes go out too but thankfully not as often as we used to. I really can't wait for warmer weather and spring- NO MORE SNOW, please!! I really want to go on more longer walks...I miss it a lot. It's harder than i thought on keeping a food journal. But i need to make it a habit soon, so i can become more aware of what I'm eating. Every step I notice or make progress makes me happy. I need lots of motivation. I've noticed that a small service of custard (1 scoop) at Culvers is better for me than 2 or more...my brother and i used a coupon yesterday for 2-scoop sundae and I barely could finish mine...kinda too much for me, and I'm glad to know that and need to remember that for next time I want to get one. Well that's all I can think of to write right now.

Stairs "workout"

Long time since I've posted...but not really. My phone isn't working right now...accidentally dropped it in the snow so right now I can't keep track of how many steps i've taken, and stuff like that :( and it's not fun having to ask my siblings to text for me...I really hope that my phone can be fixed or I might have to get a new one. I'm not happy about it since I have tons of pics and info and I'm afraid to lose them all. Anyways...I'm doing alright so far- got plenty of exercise this past weekend and today. Last weekend, my sister and couple of friends and I went to MN to visit my other sister and go to an conference (which was pretty good). So i got plenty of exercise by walking around a lot. And I actually had to try some new food- normally I'm not big fan of trying new food cuz Im kinda scared to try, and I'm comfortable with normal food. Anyways...I tried stir-fry veggies for the first time at the conference for our lunch since I had no choice- and it wasn't as bad as I thought...lol. Def interested in trying it again at home or other places :) And my sister who is living in MN for a couple of months is staying at a lady's house, and the lady is a nurse so of course there was plenty of healthy food. We had some kind of meatloaf that IDK what was in it but it's totally different from what I had at home and it wasn't that bad. Also, my sister ordered Papa Murphys pizza for saturday night and normally I like just meat and cheese, stuff like that...but she ordered chicken one with different toppings...and it wasn't that bad as I expected :) Today, my brother and I worked for my aunt at her house and I got PLENTY of exercise...yay/ugh. LOL. I had to bring up lots of boxes- some heavy, some light, etc. and bring them up the stairs to the attic. It was tiring...my legs and arms are pretty sore but now not so much. So...that's all I can think of now to report/update y'all. I'm just curious...if anyone is really reading my blog can y'all please leave a comment? Thanks!! Till next time, Hannah