Struggling...and a small victory

Lately I've been struggling with not eating junk food- I've been having too much sugar lately, esp at Good News Club(s) :P Even tho i know it's not good and healthy for me I just keep doing it. I really need to stop it. And sometimes it feels like it's impossible for me to lose weight and be thinner. And healthier. It will definitely be a long journey, but I'm trying to remember why I wanted to lose weight in the first place. Instagram is helping me be inspired...I'm following some people on their weight loss journey and they post some sayings and quotes that helps me sometimes. I think I better write down any that helps me, motivates me in notebook or on piece of papers and hang it up in my room. I plan to either do it today or tomorrow- make a poster to help motive me, and hopefully that will help too. I plan to put a pic of me now, and then later when i've lost the weight for an before and after. Today, I'm doing okay so far- in fact last night i decided to set out clothes for me to workout and I posted it on IG...and this morning I got up early and at first didn't want to do it but then I checked my IG and some people liked my pic and commented...so I decided to do it even tho I didn't want to. So...yeah I did it and it wasn't as bad as I was thinking...just the lunges, squats and jumping jacks I dislike :P lol. I'm doing Th.e Big.gest Lo.ser workout dvd that I brought 1-2 years ago. I started doing it but then just stopped for no reason... :P probably too lazy or something like that. Anyways...afterwards I feel really good and little sore. Made a peanut butter banana smoothie- I've never made smoothies before but now I'm planning to try to do them more to have some carbs, protein and just something good after/before my workout(s). I had to give my siblings a ride somewhere and then after dropping them off I decided to stop by Walmart just to browse around for a bit. I ended up buying a blank poster to TRY to start the project later today...I might post a pic of it after its done but we'll see. I'm hoping to get my room cleaned up today- I'm thinking of trying to get moving around more this weekend instead of just lying around on my bed reading or browsing around on my phone. I really wish I have a dog sometimes...definitely will get plenty of movement and walks if I had one :o)

Rainy day

I'm bummed out...I was hoping to go on more walks this week but it's raining...and supposed to be for the next 3 days :P awesome. I'm really struggling with not eating too much sugar. Sure wish it isn't so hard. But hopefully when I'm out of my Easter candy I won't struggle so much esp if I'm at home. But we'll see. So far, I've completed 3 out of 10 walks. :) All 3 walks were kinda over a mile- ranging from 1.50-1.65. Before, my reward for completing the goal was to get an haircut but now I'm not sure. I might change my mind. At first I wanted to have shorter hair for the summer, since it's much easier to take care of, and I've always put my hair up in ponytails very often, which isn't good for my hair. But now I'm unsure if I want to let it grow out like i did last summer. The past few summers I've gotten my hair cut but last year I didn't and it wasn't so bad. So I'm not sure. Anyways...sorry my posts are kinda boring without pics and I'm not that good of a blogger right now :P I'm not sure about posting pics of myself yet. Lately I've been struggling with losing weight. Some days I feel like it will never happen. Some days it feels like I can do it. Up and down. It seems impossible even tho I'm inspired by some Instagram profiles. I'm trying to drink more water every day, since I found out that you should be drinking at least 1 gallon every day. So we'll see. That's all I can think of to write for now. So...till next time.

April Goal

Okay this is kinda short...just wanna put this out there so I can make sure to really do it. My goal for the month of April is kinda small...cuz i don't know how the weather will be like this month, and I may be busy or whatever. But here we go...I'm planning to TRY to go on at least up to 10 walks this month, or more than that. And each walk needs to be more than a mile. And another small goal along with that is eat more veggies and fruits. Reward: I get an haircut. I'm trying to think n get ideas for non-food rewards...I mean I'm trying to lose weight, and I shouldn't want food for reward. :P So let's see how this goes.