Struggling...and a small victory

Lately I've been struggling with not eating junk food- I've been having too much sugar lately, esp at Good News Club(s) :P Even tho i know it's not good and healthy for me I just keep doing it. I really need to stop it. And sometimes it feels like it's impossible for me to lose weight and be thinner. And healthier. It will definitely be a long journey, but I'm trying to remember why I wanted to lose weight in the first place. Instagram is helping me be inspired...I'm following some people on their weight loss journey and they post some sayings and quotes that helps me sometimes. I think I better write down any that helps me, motivates me in notebook or on piece of papers and hang it up in my room. I plan to either do it today or tomorrow- make a poster to help motive me, and hopefully that will help too. I plan to put a pic of me now, and then later when i've lost the weight for an before and after. Today, I'm doing okay so far- in fact last night i decided to set out clothes for me to workout and I posted it on IG...and this morning I got up early and at first didn't want to do it but then I checked my IG and some people liked my pic and commented...so I decided to do it even tho I didn't want to. So...yeah I did it and it wasn't as bad as I was thinking...just the lunges, squats and jumping jacks I dislike :P lol. I'm doing Th.e Big.gest Lo.ser workout dvd that I brought 1-2 years ago. I started doing it but then just stopped for no reason... :P probably too lazy or something like that. Anyways...afterwards I feel really good and little sore. Made a peanut butter banana smoothie- I've never made smoothies before but now I'm planning to try to do them more to have some carbs, protein and just something good after/before my workout(s). I had to give my siblings a ride somewhere and then after dropping them off I decided to stop by Walmart just to browse around for a bit. I ended up buying a blank poster to TRY to start the project later today...I might post a pic of it after its done but we'll see. I'm hoping to get my room cleaned up today- I'm thinking of trying to get moving around more this weekend instead of just lying around on my bed reading or browsing around on my phone. I really wish I have a dog sometimes...definitely will get plenty of movement and walks if I had one :o)

Rainy day

I'm bummed out...I was hoping to go on more walks this week but it's raining...and supposed to be for the next 3 days :P awesome. I'm really struggling with not eating too much sugar. Sure wish it isn't so hard. But hopefully when I'm out of my Easter candy I won't struggle so much esp if I'm at home. But we'll see. So far, I've completed 3 out of 10 walks. :) All 3 walks were kinda over a mile- ranging from 1.50-1.65. Before, my reward for completing the goal was to get an haircut but now I'm not sure. I might change my mind. At first I wanted to have shorter hair for the summer, since it's much easier to take care of, and I've always put my hair up in ponytails very often, which isn't good for my hair. But now I'm unsure if I want to let it grow out like i did last summer. The past few summers I've gotten my hair cut but last year I didn't and it wasn't so bad. So I'm not sure. Anyways...sorry my posts are kinda boring without pics and I'm not that good of a blogger right now :P I'm not sure about posting pics of myself yet. Lately I've been struggling with losing weight. Some days I feel like it will never happen. Some days it feels like I can do it. Up and down. It seems impossible even tho I'm inspired by some Instagram profiles. I'm trying to drink more water every day, since I found out that you should be drinking at least 1 gallon every day. So we'll see. That's all I can think of to write for now. So...till next time.

April Goal

Okay this is kinda short...just wanna put this out there so I can make sure to really do it. My goal for the month of April is kinda small...cuz i don't know how the weather will be like this month, and I may be busy or whatever. But here we go...I'm planning to TRY to go on at least up to 10 walks this month, or more than that. And each walk needs to be more than a mile. And another small goal along with that is eat more veggies and fruits. Reward: I get an haircut. I'm trying to think n get ideas for non-food rewards...I mean I'm trying to lose weight, and I shouldn't want food for reward. :P So let's see how this goes.

Definitely hard sometimes

I now know it's harder than i thought, especially with resisting sugar. :P I made puppy chow for my brother's class tonight and since I was driving him and staying to bring him home afterwards, of course I wanted to have some. I snitched some while making it earlier. Same thing with making treats for Good News Club. Why is it so hard??? Last 2 weeks I didn't have any sugar while my brother was in class, which I consider a small success but not tonight. I need to remember to make small goals instead of big ones. It may be overwhelming to me sometimes. I'm still trying sometimes. Just sure wish I can get rid of all junk food but my family might not be happy with me. And besides, I need to make treats for Good News Club and we sometimes go out too but thankfully not as often as we used to. I really can't wait for warmer weather and spring- NO MORE SNOW, please!! I really want to go on more longer walks...I miss it a lot. It's harder than i thought on keeping a food journal. But i need to make it a habit soon, so i can become more aware of what I'm eating. Every step I notice or make progress makes me happy. I need lots of motivation. I've noticed that a small service of custard (1 scoop) at Culvers is better for me than 2 or more...my brother and i used a coupon yesterday for 2-scoop sundae and I barely could finish mine...kinda too much for me, and I'm glad to know that and need to remember that for next time I want to get one. Well that's all I can think of to write right now.

Stairs "workout"

Long time since I've posted...but not really. My phone isn't working right now...accidentally dropped it in the snow so right now I can't keep track of how many steps i've taken, and stuff like that :( and it's not fun having to ask my siblings to text for me...I really hope that my phone can be fixed or I might have to get a new one. I'm not happy about it since I have tons of pics and info and I'm afraid to lose them all. Anyways...I'm doing alright so far- got plenty of exercise this past weekend and today. Last weekend, my sister and couple of friends and I went to MN to visit my other sister and go to an conference (which was pretty good). So i got plenty of exercise by walking around a lot. And I actually had to try some new food- normally I'm not big fan of trying new food cuz Im kinda scared to try, and I'm comfortable with normal food. Anyways...I tried stir-fry veggies for the first time at the conference for our lunch since I had no choice- and it wasn't as bad as I thought...lol. Def interested in trying it again at home or other places :) And my sister who is living in MN for a couple of months is staying at a lady's house, and the lady is a nurse so of course there was plenty of healthy food. We had some kind of meatloaf that IDK what was in it but it's totally different from what I had at home and it wasn't that bad. Also, my sister ordered Papa Murphys pizza for saturday night and normally I like just meat and cheese, stuff like that...but she ordered chicken one with different toppings...and it wasn't that bad as I expected :) Today, my brother and I worked for my aunt at her house and I got PLENTY of exercise...yay/ugh. LOL. I had to bring up lots of boxes- some heavy, some light, etc. and bring them up the stairs to the attic. It was tiring...my legs and arms are pretty sore but now not so much. So...that's all I can think of now to report/update y'all. I'm just curious...if anyone is really reading my blog can y'all please leave a comment? Thanks!! Till next time, Hannah

A small victory, new idea

As I said before, I brought a bag of m and ms few days ago while food shopping for my family. Almost ate all of it but last night i realized it didn't make me feel good- so i gave away the last to my siblings and dad. Now there's none left for me to eat. Of course, this morning I kinda regretted it but it's done. :) I'm hoping to TRY to not have any sugar to get back in being used to not so much sugar as I did way back then...since I realized that if there's no sugar around here in the house I don't always crave it, which is good. Yesterday, I had an idea- and did it last night. So I'm going to try to do it every day this month and see how it goes.

Too much isn't always a good thing...

Hi all, Yeah...I'm posting again and it's less than a week since my last post :) Well...I'm doing okay so far...wishing I know how much I weight right now but I can't since our scale isn't fixed yet. :P I've noticed that having too much of something like candies or meals isn't always good/satisfying. I've noticed that I don't feel so good afterwards. Trying to learn to eat more slowly- especially with tacos and pizzas! 2 of my top favorite meals... :-/ I'm trying to limit myself more and try to be more aware. Trying to drink a glass of water before each meal, thanks to a friend for the tip but I keep forgetting. Tryin not to next time :P I just recently brought a bag of m&ms (yeah I'm naughty/bad) since i had a walmart giftcard...kinda regret it now but I'm almost always craving sugar :-( Trying to make it last for few days or weeks but we'll see. I'm trying to go on more walks or at least get moving around more. Recently, I got a new app on my phone for exercising and it kinda helps- every time I record what I did for exercise or exercise and my phone tracks it, i get points to put toward rewards...pretty cool :D Well this isn't very long...just wanna record about what I've noticed, and what im up to sometimes. Hoping to figure out if i can do a new look and more spaces between posts since I don't want the posts to be clumped together :P But idk why it isn't working. Till next time...

Kinda failed my first goal of the week...

Hi, Well...my first week didn't go as well as I expected :P kinda failed at my goal of no sugar for a week. UGH. New goal for this week- move around more. I've noticed something though- my brothers and I were on our way back home from spending the weekend with some friends in another state and we stopped by McDonalds for dinner- I didn't really enjoy the food I ordered as much as I did- and I didn't feel so good afterwards. I'm kinda not surprised cuz we used to go out for fast food a lot long time ago but now not very often, which is good...right? I got some exercise this past weekend, though not as much as i hoped. One of my brothers got hurt during skiing- we went to the emergency room and they said they think it might be his Achilles tendon so he had a splint on and had to take it easy- i ended up helping him and taking care of him and only got to hang out a little with our friends. But today i took him to our doctor, since we came home yesterday and turns out it's just a bad sprain. He's on crutches for a while. I did have some sugar almost every day but not all week, thankfully...only friday- the only thing i had that was sweet/sugar was hot chocolate but no cookies or candies. Hopefully I can set smaller goals every day, thanks to a friend for the idea/tip. Here's to another new week...hopefully better than this past week?? I really can't wait for better and warmer weather, and spring so i can go on more walks outside!! :)

1st real goal for this coming week....

Yeah...the title is kinda boring but I'm trying to make sure I really do and keep the goal. I'm a sugar addict. :P I realized that I can't stop after only few cookies or something like that...but if its at a party or someones house I try to not eat too much. But whenever I buy candy or something like that it doesn't always last longer than 3 or 4 days before its gone :( I never really thought about it till I was reading one of Katie's (runsforcookies)old blogposts, and it brought to my attention that I have similar "problem" :P So...I'm saying this out here on my blog, so that it better really happen so i can keep the goal. Starting on Monday, for a week...I plan to try to not have any cookies or candy even tho it may be hard...only can have 2-3 on Wednesday since I'm responsible for making treats for GNC. Other than Wednesday, no cookies or candies. Let's see if it works that I can keep a goal or not... P.S. I will prolly post some pics of myself sometime but won't be showing my face just to be safe out here.

Update...

Hi! It's been too long...ops. I've been doing okay with weight loss- so far I've given up few times but now this time for real I'm more determined. Plenty of friends r supporting me...I'm thankful for them :) Our weight scale isn't working so I don't know what my current weight is right now, which stinks. I'm trying to get moving more and eating more better food- i'm trying to eat/resist sugar but it's not going well...not surprising since I'm an sugar addict. :P This is just a short post to say that I'll try to get back in the habit of blogging here so i can keep myself accountable besides my new Weight loss journal that i just started few days ago. I had to stop going to WW because i can't afford it anymore. It kinda stinks :( going there was really helpful and helped me be more accountable and plenty of support. And knowing how much I weight, etc. I plan to TRY to post at least once a week, and if it works well for a month or so i'll prolly try to post more often then. But for now...let's see how it goes... Signing off for now... -Hannah